I sent you that because I wanted to make things better. Because I miss my best friend, and I’m tired of the bull shit. I tried to show you that this is fucking hard for me and that I’m trying my best. I thought I could make things better by being more honest with you.
And what did I do? Just…
What do you know I jinxed it. I ruin everything good in my life. I messed things up with Allen. I’m pretty sure I’ve totally ruined my relationship with Creeanna. She won’t even talk to me. I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore. I hate myself.
Where were you 6 months ago when I wanted a serious relationship?
This guy that asked me on a date came to my work today and brought me flowers because I was having a bad day. And he’s so sweet. And so into me and just asjksksdk. I like him but I just don’t want a serious relationship right now. Where were you 6 months ago?? I just don’t really know what to do.